Questions and Answers

• 1: Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?

My closet doors are currently in the basement, where they’ve been for as long as I’ve lived here. I think they were moved down there to be painted, but that still hasn’t happened. But I’m moving tomorrow, to a bedroom where the closet doors will always be closed and the closet not actually mine.

• 2: Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?

No. I used to be fascinated with them as a child, but as an adult, I use them while staying in the hotel and that’s all.

• 3: Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?

Hahahaha. Sheets on my bed. That’s funny. Right now, my bed is at my sister’s house, due to the moving tomorrow. But where I’m moving, I will probably sleep on top of all the covers because my grandmother likes it warm in the house and I’ll be upstairs, where it’s even warmer.

• 4: Have you ever stolen a street sign before?

No.

• 5: Do you like to use post-it notes?

Yes. I like them a lot. Which is why I don’t keep them around.

• 6: Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?

No, I rarely cut out coupons.

• 7: Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?

Bees.

• 8: Do you have freckles?

Yes, quite a lot of them.

• 9: Do you always smile for pictures?

No. I rarely smile because I hate my teeth and it never looks genuine.

• 10: What is your biggest pet peeve?

Split infinitives. And people who believe that not being in school is an excuse to dump all knowledge of English grammar.

• 11: Do you ever count your steps when you walk?

Yes.

• 12: Have you ever peed in the woods?

When I was 10, I went to this cookout-type thing with my sister and my grandparents on the property of another family from their church. We weren’t actually in the woods, but there were woods nearby. I had to pee, but the only available toilet was a porta-john and I had never used one before and I have an anxiety disorder that makes new situations difficult for me, so I didn’t and I ultimately urinated in my pants. Sadly, that was not the last time my anxiety caused me to urinate not in a toilet.

• 13: What about pooped in the woods?

No. I did in the backyard as a child though.

• 14: Do you ever dance even if there’s no music playing?

It’s fairly rare for there not to be music playing, but I am known to dance without music. But not while anyone is watching. Unless I’m really happy.

• 15: Do you chew your pens and pencils?

Not usually, which is odd given how frequently I chew on other things.

• 16: How many people have you slept with this week?

Zero.

• 17: What size is your bed?

Double.

• 18: What is your Song of the week?

I have a playlist that I listen to literally every single day. It’s 51 minutes, 46 seconds long. So I guess all of those songs, because I definitely can’t pick just one.

• 19: Is it okay for guys to wear pink?

Yes. It’s okay for anyone to wear any color.

• 20: Do you still watch cartoons?

Yes.

• 21: Whats your least favorite movie?

There are thousands of movies I’ve never seen. The least favorite of those I have? Probably Talladega Nights: The Ballad of Ricky Bobby, though I mostly ignored it in favor of reading.

• 22: Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?

I would get bored and exhausted before I could dig a hole sufficiently deep, so nowhere.

• 23: What do you drink with dinner?

Depends on the meal. Milk with spaghetti exclusively. Milk for a lot of things, juice for a few, water for some.

• 24: What do you dip a chicken nugget in?

Ketchup.

• 25: What is your favorite food?

Chicken alfredo.

• 26: What movies could you watch over and over and still love?

Saved!, Crash, Notting Hill. There are dozens, really.

• 27: Last person you kissed/kissed you?

My nephew!

• 28: Were you ever a boy/girl scout?

No.

• 29: Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?

Unlikely.

• 30: When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?

Not that long ago. Maybe two weeks? I wrote a letter to Anna and one to Tricia.

• 31: Can you change the oil on a car?

No.

• 32: Ever gotten a speeding ticket?

Yes.

• 33: Ever ran out of gas?

Not as a driver.

• 34: Favorite kind of sandwich?

Roast beef, colby jack cheese, miracle whip, and shredded lettuce on a croissant. So unhealthy, but so damn tasty.

• 35: Best thing to eat for breakfast?

Cheerios.

• 36: What is your usual bedtime?

Lately, 10 PM, thought that’s not the case this particular evening.

• 37: Are you lazy?

Very.

• 38: When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?

Clown, dog, Abby Sciuto, Fauna from Sleeping Beauty, Hermione Granger, I’m sure other things, but those are the ones I remember.

• 39: What is your Chinese astrological sign?

I had to look this up because I had no idea what that even meant. Astrology.com informs me that mine is a sheep.

• 40: How many languages can you speak?

Fluently? One. I speak some French and very little Spanish and ASL.

• 41: Do you have any magazine subscriptions?

No.

• 42: Which are better legos or lincoln logs?

Legos!

• 43: Are you stubborn?

Yes.

• 44: Who is better…Leno or Letterman?

I don’t watch either.

• 45: Ever watch soap operas?

So, when I was in 7th grade, I stopped going to school for a while before we moved to another state. I don’t remember exactly why I stopped going to long before the actual move took place, but in that time, I got hooked on All My Children and I continued to watch it for the rest of that school year and up until I finally returned to school.

• 46: Are you afraid of heights?

Occasionally, but I’m afraid of so many things that I have to draw the line, so I don’t let that stop me from doing things.

• 47: Do you sing in the car?

Frequently.

• 48: Do you sing in the shower?

Only if there’s no one else in the house or possibly returning within the duration of my shower.

• 49: Do you dance in the car?

If I’m excited about something.

• 50: Ever used a gun?

No. I touched one once when we visited a police station in elementary school and that is the extent of my experience with a gun.

• 51: Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?

1994, unless we count school pictures. If those count, 2008? I think. Maybe 2007.

• 52: Do you think musicals are cheesy?

I love musicals, but some of them can be cheesy.

• 53: Is Christmas stressful?

Depends on who’s involved. But I love Christmastime.

• 54: Ever eat a pierogi?

I have no idea what that even is. Okay. I looked it up. If ravioli counts as a variety, yes. Otherwise, no.

• 55: Favorite type of fruit pie?

I don’t like fruit pies. Or most pies. I will occasionally eat pumpkin, but as I get older, tolerance for the cumin taste seems to lessen.

• 56: Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?

At different times: Doctor, vet, writer. Eventually, I settled on librarian.

• 57: Do you believe in ghosts?

No.

• 58: Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?

Frequently.

• 59: Take a vitamin daily?

No.

• 60: Wear slippers?

When I need them.

• 61: Wear a bath robe?

I have one, but I forget to wear it a lot of the time.

• 62: What do you wear to bed?

Pajamas.

• 63: First concert?

ALL CAPS, Hank Green, Molly Lewis, etc. at VidCon 2010.

• 64: Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?

Wal-Mart usually.

• 65: Nike or Adidas?

Neither.

• 66: Cheetos Or Fritos?

Both are gross.

• 67: Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?

Peanuts, but I don’t regularly eat either.

• 68: Ever hear of the group Tres Bien?

No.

• 69: Ever take dance lessons?

No.

• 70: Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?

Probably something really nerdy.

• 71: Can you curl your tongue?

Yes.

• 72: Ever won a spelling bee?

No, unfortunately.

• 73: Have you ever cried because you were so happy?

Yes.

• 74: Own any record albums?

No.

• 75: Own a record player?

No.

• 76: Regularly burn incense?

No.

• 77: Ever been in love?

Probably not.

• 78: Who would you like to see in concert?

Sara Ramirez.

• 79: What was the last concert you saw?

The cast of Grey’s Anatomy.

• 80: Hot tea or cold tea?

I don’t like tea.

• 81: Tea or coffee?

I don’t like coffee either.

• 82: Sugar or snickerdoodles?

I hope that actually means sugar COOKIES, because that’s an otherwise awkward question. Probably snickerdoodles.

• 83: Can you swim well?

Passably. I wouldn’t say well.

• 84: Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?

Yes, but I require a nose plug while swimming.

• 85: Are you patient?

Depends on what I’m waiting to happen.

• 86: DJ or band, at a wedding?

For my own? I don’t ever plan to have one, but I guess a DJ?

• 87: Ever won a contest?

Depends on what counts. I have plaques for my success in year three and year four French from when I was in high school.

• 88: Ever have plastic surgery?

For reconstructive purposes, maybe. For aesthetic reasons, probably not.

• 89: Which are better black or green olives?

I don’t like either.

• 90: Can you knit or crochet?

I can crochet, but not well.

• 91: Best room for a fireplace?

Den?

• 92: Do you want to get married?

If it were important to my partner, I would, but I don’t feel like you have to be married to be committed.

• 93: If married, how long have you been married?

I am not.

• 94: Who was your HS crush?

I didn’t really do crushes.

• 95: Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?

I have a few times, but not habitually.

• 96: Do you have kids?

No.

• 97: Do you want kids?

It would be a discussion to have with a partner, but I do not have favorable genes and I might not be medically well enough to have a child by the time it comes up. I also believe I would be a terrible parent, but, as with most things, I’m not completely closed off to the idea.

• 98: What’s your favorite color?

Blue.

• 99: Do you miss anyone right now?

Always.

Questions and Answers

• 1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up.

Be Yourself by Adioslave, Come to Me by Koop, Chemical Love (YouTube mix) by Charlie McDonnell, Amber Lambs by Hank Green, Lisa Librarian by Velocity Girl, and How We Operate by Grey’s Anatomy Cast.

 

• 2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

I think Sara Ramírez, unless we’re including persons with whom I already have an established internet relationship. I’d like to meet Emma IRL at some point.

 

• 3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.

“man; the girl Harry loved was the prize. The young man was a good boxer; Harry could”

 

–The Film Comedy Reader

 

• 4) What do you think about most?

Life.

 

• 5) What does your latest text message from someone else say?

“Ahh you must have told me before. Sorry I did not remember that. Feel better! Know that I love you and am praying for you. DFTBA!”

 

• 6) Do you sleep with ____ or without ______ on?

I’m going to fill the blanks with pants. Whenever I can, I try to go with #nopants.

 

• 7) What’s your strangest talent?

I can solve Rubik’s Cube.

 

• 8) Girls…. (finish the sentence); Boys…. (finish the sentence)

Girls are humans. Boys are also humans.

 

• 9) Ever had a poem or song written about you?

Yes, a poem.

 

• 10) When is the last time you played the air guitar?

Probably the last time my hands were free while I was listening to Opossum by Brother/Sister.

 

• 11) Do you have any strange phobias?

I don’t think I do.

 

• 12) Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?

Yes.

 

• 13) What’s your religion?

Atheism.

 

• 14) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?

Walking to my car or walking from my car.

 

• 15) Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

Behind.

 

• 16) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?

ALL CAPS.

 

• 17) What was the last lie you told?

It was technically a lie when I told my mother that I know what’s wrong with me when she asked me my symptoms.

 

• 18) Do you believe in karma?

I WISH karma existed, but I don’t think that it does.

 

• 19) What does your URL mean?

It’s my username for my university. It’s the first four letters of my last name, my first initial, and then 01, because I’m the first person with that letter combination to go to my school.

 

• 20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?

Anxiety is my greatest weakness. My greatest strength is probably the way that I see the world.

 

• 21) Who is your celebrity crush?

Neil Patrick Harris. And Tiny Fey. I love me some Tina Fey.

 

• 22) Have you ever gone skinny dipping?

No.

 

• 23) How do you vent your anger?

I don’t. I let it bottle up until I explode or I just don’t care anymore.

 

• 24) Do you have a collection of anything?

Rubik’s puzzles, DFTBA records t-shirts, books signed by their authors, Grey’s Anatomy memorabilia.

 

• 25) Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

Video chatting online. I HATE talking on the phone.

 

• 26) Are you happy with the person you’ve become?

Not at all.

 

• 27) What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?

I hate the sound of our oven timer. I love the sound of Sara Ramírez’s voice.

 

• 28) What’s your biggest “what if”?

What if I hadn’t fucked all this up so badly?

 

• 29) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

No, and in the sense that aliens aren’t necessarily from another planet, yes.

 

• 30) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.

Nothing on either side of me. I’m sitting in the middle of my bed.

 

• 31) Smell the air. What do you smell?

Whatever is cooking for dinner. No idea what it is. Just checked; it’s ratatouille.

 

• 32) What’s the worst place you have ever been?

High school.

 

• 33) Choose East Coast or West Coast?

I’ve never been to the east coast. I’m not particularly attached to either, but LA was nice.

 

• 34) Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?

Uhhhhhhhh, I’m going to say Neil Patrick Harris because he’s adorable and he does sing.

 

• 35) To you, what is the meaning of life?

Perpetuation.

 

• 36) Define Art.

Beauty.

 

• 37) Do you believe in luck?

Not really.

 

• 38) What’s the weather like right now?

45° and sunny, a break from the super strong winds and rain we’ve been having.

 

• 39) What time is it?

5:08 PM

 

• 40) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?

I do drive. My car slid into a curb last winter, because the orthodontist didn’t ice the parking lot, but I’ve never actually full-on crashed.

 

• 41) What was the last book you read?

The Fault in Our Stars by John Green.

 

• 42) Do you like the smell of gasoline?

I’m not repulsed by it, but I’m aware the fumes are dangerous, so I don’t go out of my way to smell it.

 

• 43) Do you have any nicknames?

Angela calls me Princess and Big Girl. My family called me Sara until I was 4, but the only person who does anymore is my brother when he’s trying to upset me.

 

• 44) What was the last movie you saw?

Steamboat Bill, Jr.

 

• 45) What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?

A flowerpot fell on my head when I was around 6, and it cut down to my skull. I have a scar above my left eyebrow because of it.

 

• 46) Have you ever caught a butterfly?

Yes.

 

• 47) Do you have any obsessions right now?

Grey’s Anatomy. In particular, Callie and Arizona.

 

• 48) What’s your sexual orientation?

Human beings.

 

• 49) Ever had a rumor spread about you?

Probably.

 

• 50) Do you believe in magic?

In a young girl’s heart? No.

 

• 51) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?

Yes.

 

• 52) What is your astrological sign?

Aries, I think…I don’t really follow that.

 

• 53) Do you save money or spend it?

Save mostly, but I do spend some money.

 

• 54) What’s the last thing you purchased?

A slushee for Austin’s birthday.

 

• 55) Love or lust?

Love.

 

• 56) In a relationship?

I am not.

 

• 57) How many relationships have you had?

4.

 

• 58) Can you touch your nose with your tongue?

Yes.

 

• 59) Where were you yesterday?

Mostly at home, except for school transportation at 7 and 2:30.

 

• 60) Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?

I’m on top of a pink comforter. The top half of my walls are also pink. I have a Wicked-theme room.

 

• 61) Are you wearing socks right now?

No, I took them off when I finished cleaning my room.

 

• 62) What’s your favorite animal?

Dogs.

 

• 63) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?

I don’t usually go out of my way to get anyone to like me. If they don’t, I don’t care.

 

• 64) Where is your best friend?

Cleveland, Ohio.

 

• 65) Spit or swallow?(;

Depends on what’s in my mouth.

 

• 66) What is your heritage?

I’m an a human being. I don’t think it matters beyond that.

 

• 67) What were you doing last night at 12 AM?

Probably writing, reading, or watching Grey’s Anatomy. I should have been sleeping, but sleep has not come easily this week.

 

• 68) What do you think is Satan’s last name?

I don’t think he has one. I also don’t believe he exists outside of the imagination, so you could give him whatever name you wanted.

 

• 69) Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?

Yes. I’m not ashamed of that, and I think it’s sad that so many people are.

 

• 70) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?

I don’t think so. I get annoyed easily with people who are like me.

 

• 71) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?

Save the dog.

 

• 72) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?

a. I would not probably tell anyone or at least not tell many, because I wouldn’t want people to treat me differently because my death is imminent. b. I would drop out of school, quit any job I had, and probably just write a lot, sleep whenever I want, read, and watch movies and tv.

 

• 73) You can only have one of these things: trust or love.

That’s not really a question. That’s a statement, and an erroneous one at that.

 

• 74) What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?

How to Save A Life as performed by the Grey’s Anatomy cast. Actually, the whole Music Event album. It transports me back to the first time I watched The Music Event and how magical it was.

 

• 75) What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?

8468.

 

• 76) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?

Honesty.

 

• 77) How can I win your heart?

Be honest, intelligent, and respectful of beliefs other than your own.

 

• 78) Can insanity bring on more creativity?

Yes.

 

• 79) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?

Moving out of my parents’ house the day I turned 18.

 

• 80) What size shoes do you wear?

I had to go get my shoe to look. US 7.

 

• 81) What would you want to be written on your tombstone?

I don’t want a tombstone.

 

• 82) What is your favorite word?

As a word to say or as a concept? Dichotomy to say, Paradise as a concept.

 

• 83) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.

Pain.

 

• 84) What is a saying you say a lot?

“The world is not a wish-granting factory.”

 

• 85) What’s the last song you listened to?

Currently playing is Make it Without You by Andrew Belle. Before that was Trapped in a New Scene by Octoberman.

 

• 86) Basic question; what’s your favorite color/colors?

Teal.

 

• 87) What is your current desktop picture?

A desktop someone on the comm made which has images of Callie, Arizona, and their daughter, Sofia.

 

• 88) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?

I wouldn’t.

 

• 89) What would be a question you’d be afraid to answer honestly?

What are you thinking?

 

• 90) One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do?

Go back to sleep. Although, if they provide the same hair-raising feeling that people staring at me does, I won’t be able to get back to sleep.

 

• 91) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?

Super intelligence or time manipulation.

 

• 92) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?

The first half-hour of my life.

 

• 93) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

The event that led me to have the flashbacks that are currently preventing me from sleeping at night.

 

• 94) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?

No one. Sexual contact should be born of mutual attraction and desire.

 

• 95) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?

Nowhere.

 

• 96) Do you have any relatives in jail?

Not as far as I’m aware.

 

• 97) Have you ever thrown up in the car?

Not as far as I remember.

 

• 98) Ever been on a plane?

Yes. I flew to Japan as a baby to go home, then we came back to the US. I flew from Texas to Indiana with my grandparents and two siblings as a toddler, and then again with two different siblings when I was 7. Also flew to LA and back in July 2010. Next weekend, I’m flying back to LA and back.

 

• 99) If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?

I would probably be too petrified to say anything at all.

 

• 100) Give me your top 5 favorite blogs on Tumblr.

rovingoutfielder, a-windsor, fishingboatproceeds, calzonaconfessions, and greysanatomyheadcanons

I Want To Hold Your Hand

I like The Beatles. They were an amazing band, and they made a lot of great music.

That said, they wrote and performed a song called, “I Want To Hold Your Hand.” I love this song. But more than their version, I love the version sung by Chris Colfer, of the cast of Glee. I’ve never actually seen a full episode of Glee, but this song somehow made its way on to my radar. The first time I heard it, and watched the accompanying clip of the show, I cried. It’s such a beautiful song and so well performed.

Here’s the video of the song. It doesn’t include the clip of the show, just the audio

I was thinking about it today, and was reminded of two summers ago. I had a boyfriend. Our relationship, despite the label, was 99% platonic. I think I kissed him only once or twice. Mostly, we held hands. We wandered around one of the departments of the public library just holding hands. And I don’t miss kissing him. I don’t even really miss hugging him. I sometimes miss the label of boyfriend associated with him. But what I miss the most is holding his hand.

Some Good News and Some Bad News (Updated)

So, the good news first. My sister gave birth to my nephew yesterday morning at 2:30 AM, 6 days before his due date. He is 7 lbs., 5 oz. and is 19 in. long. They didn’t quite make it to the hospital, so he was actually born in the car. After more than 24 hours, they decided on the name Colin Avery. Mom and baby are both doing well. Colin joins big brother Henry, b. Nov. 2008.

And now I must share with you the bad news. Last night, just before 10 PM, a friend of my family was abducted less than a mile from my house. His name is Robert Michael Brookens, but he always went by Mike. He is 17 years old with dark blonde hair and blue eyes. He wears glasses and stands about 6 feet tall. His car with his cell phone in it was discovered around 2 this morning in a local park.

Here and here are links to more information. I have never known a missing person before, and this is not a feeling I wanted ever to experience, nor would I wish this feeling on anyone else.

Mike used to mow our lawn. I have never known him to be unkind to anyone. I’ll continue to update here as I get more information. If you are reading this and share this information, I ask you please to commit to continue the updates until the story is complete, because far too often, people will spread the news that someone has gone missing, but will not update if the person has been found.

ETA: Mike has been found. They found him at a truck stop early this morning, and they said he was okay when they found him.

Two Posts in One Day?!?

I don’t think I’ve ever posted twice in one day before, but there’s just so much left to say. I’ve been talking to my sister about what happened last night. I mentioned before that I don’t watch the news, so my factual information is limited to Hank Green’s wonderful video on the topic.

I’m feeling very philosophical today, most particularly about this topic.

Quote from the conversation with my sister:

“I wish we never had reason to celebrate someone’s death.”

I also spoke to the kids about it today because the topic came up right after we pulled down our street on the way home from school. Frick wondered aloud if the mother of the soldier who killed bin Laden would be proud of him. I thought about it for a few minutes before answering him.

I don’t want to type up the speech exactly as I said it, partly because it was less than eloquent, and partly because I don’t entirely remember. But the main point of it was that bin Laden was a human being. And he had a mother and a father and siblings and I am sure that they loved him, despite the many unfortunate choices he made with his life. And I told him that no matter what he did with his life, whatever poor decisions he makes, his mother will love him until the end of time. And she would be devastated if he died, even if his death meant preventing many others. And on the other side, soldiers come back from war with PTSD all the time because of what they have seen and what they have done. By most accounts, taking a life isn’t easy, even if it’s for the greater good. And now everyone is celebrating this event, and the SEAL  who shot him gets left feeling however he does about it. Maybe he’s proud of what he has done. He has certainly done a service to his country. But maybe he’s a little broken up inside, and now he has everyone telling him that he’s a hero, and that what he did was amazing, and all he feels is sadness.

I don’t know. Like I told my sister, I don’t know how anyone else feels. I only know how I feel. And it’s not good.

Death

So, I don’t really watch the news because I am severely depressed and I don’t really need anything additional in my life. However, it is very hard to miss what happened last night. Osama bin Laden is dead. The very first thing I heard this morning was “Osama bin Laden is dead.”

I got on my computer, and several of my facebook friends, as well as nearly everyone I follow on Twitter, had commented on his death. One thing that struck me as odd was that everyone was so happy about it.

I’m not saying that he wasn’t a bad guy. I was only 10 in 2001, but trust me, I remember. That day is why I don’t watch the news anymore. I remember seeing an online game called, “Yo Mama, Osama” wherein you shot off the limbs of bin Laden before shooting off his turban.

A human being died. And I know he wasn’t a good guy. I know that. I know that his death could prevent many more deaths. I know that he is responsible for the deaths of many good people. But he is a person. And he is dead. And he has parents. It’s unusual for me to be on this side.

Maybe I’m just missing something.

Back Again

So, I’ve been having a rough couple of days. I was at the library earlier this week, and a friend of mine suggested that my stomachaches (which I get nearly every day now) might be due to lactose intolerance. So, since then, I have eliminated lactose from my diet, so that I can see if the stomachaches go away.

It’s been three days, I think, and I’ve had stomachaches the last two days. And I’m hungry. I never really realized how great a percentage of my daily caloric intake came from lactose-based foods. I’ve had to get a bit creative about what I’ve been eating, but a plus is that I’m actually eating healthier foods, because I figure that while I’m at it, I might try to form some good habits. I have to continue this diet for 18 more days. So not my idea of a good time.

Songs to Lose Your Hearing To

So, I warned that all I really wanted to do was gush about the musical episode of Grey’s Anatomy, right?

For the musical episodes, they did one of my favorite songs, “How to Save a Life.” I’m listening to the song right now even. I’m listening to it louder than anyone should listen to music, for fear of damaging their hearing. But I love music. And I find many songs most enjoyable when they are so loud I can’t hear anything else, even the thoughts inside my head. And I will probably lose most or all of my hearing due to this habit, but one of the things I’m working on is not beating myself up over every thing I do that isn’t good for me, because the stress of that is killing me faster than anything else could. I like to turn up a playlist of my favorite songs to top volume and put my earbuds in with noise-cancellers over them. That’s how I enjoy my life.

Blogging Every Day

I’ve thought doing BEDA, and if you look back into the archives, when I started this blog, it was a daily blog. The only problem I have with saying I’m going to BEDA is that the commitment will cause me undue amounts of stress. To remedy this, I’m going to admit that it is very unlikely that I will remember or have the will to blog every day. But I can blog today.  And today, I choose to blog about the amazing television show that I love that had a musical episode last night. For those of you who don’t already know where I’m going with this, it was Grey’s Anatomy. This post will contain major spoilers, so proceed with caution.

So, the episode starts where the previous left off, with Callie and Arizona getting hit by a truck. Arizona has a few scrapes and bruises, but mainly, it was Callie who was the victim in this accident. Throughout the episode, she is struggling to survive, and they are struggling to save her. Anyway, mainly, I just want to gush about the parts I really liked. First of all, the music selection was excellent. It was so awesome, I got on iTunes and bought the album about 10 minutes after I finished watching the episode. And I’ve been listening to it most of today. I was wonderfully surprised at many of the singing voices.

Throughout the song “Breathe (2 AM)”, I couldn’t help but remember what happened on the show in the last episode to feature that song. If you don’t remember, allow me to remind you:

Oddly, that episode was the last time I anticipated an episode so much that wasn’t a premiere or finale.

I loved the role reversal Arizona and Mark experienced where Arizona worries about the baby, because she knows that Callie won’t want to be alive if she wakes up and her baby is dead and Mark is just worried about Callie surviving.

When they are taking Callie into the elevator and the doors close, and Arizona tears up a little and says, “I asked her to marry me and a truck came out of no where.” I teared up a little.

Derek noticing that Arizona is watching from the gallery, but Mark is nowhere to be seen and so he sends Lexie to find him.

Alex comforting Arizona in the gallery. It’s been a while since they’ve had a good scene together.

I had completely forgotten that Addison and Callie were close friends when Addison worked at Seattle Grace.

Meredith resigning that Cristina can be Callie’s daughter’s godmother.

Alex calling the hospital Seattle Grace Mercy Death.

Runnin’ on Sunshine and the conversation in the car in the sky preceding. I love how Callie tells her they’re going to hit a truck and Arizona tells her to put on her seat belt and then proceeds to tell her to put it on 5 or 6 more times.

The duet between Arizona and Callie.

“How to Save a Life” was all amazing, but particularly Mark and Arizona watching from the gallery with Apparition!Callie between them, and Arizona putting her hand on the glass and Apparition!Callie puts her hand on top of Arizona’s. And then the glance and dash between Mark and Arizona as they rush down to the ER for the birth of their daughter. 1lb., 1 oz of strong with beautiful black hair.

The nod between Mark and Arizona and Arizona stepping in to care for her daughter. And then her voice breaking when she says, “I have a heartbeat!”

Mark admitting to Arizona that she’s not nothing, that they are co-parents.

The scene in the elevator between Meredith and Derek was beautiful. The elevator symbolism continues on.

Apparition!Callie shaking Coma!Callie’s hospital bed.

Callie opening her eyes and saying “Yes. Yes, I will marry you.”

Yeah, it took me about 4 hours and 6 tries to finish this blog post. And this is why I don’t blog more often. I’m too distractible. I should go get my laundry out of the dryer. But I should post this first.

Birthday

I’m turning 20 on Monday. I’m planning this party picnic at a local park for myself. I made a list of all the things that need to be purchased for it, and I planned a location and figured out who I wanted to invite, and actually allowed myself to get a little excited about it. But, as with everything else happy in my life, something screwed it up.

I have tiny chicken disease right now, and being sick always makes everything that happens much, much worse. I was sick one year on Thanksgiving, and I had a full-on meltdown when I saw a dog get hit by a car.

Anyway, a week or so ago, I was telling my best friend about my birthday, and how I was going to have the celebration probably the day before. And he replied that he was probably going out of town for a college thing. Fine. Still pressed on. Planned a bit more, told a few more people. Then today I was talking to my roommate about what a good time on Sunday would be to start the event. And she brought up that the kids are supposed to go with their dad on Sunday. And since he can sometimes take an hour after they call to come and get them, she will have to wait here until he comes. So, that’s 4. I also talked to my brother. He doesn’t want to come because it’s going to be in an outdoor park, and the high is only 51° that day.

And I just checked the forecast. It says rain. Awesome.  Whatever.